So this weekend was pretty good starting off. Friday night we are usually up to something, so it was nice to hang out at my mom and dad's and relax. Nothing special, ya know? On Saturday we had to go to a lunch my Dad's club puts on, and then we headed up to Springville to Mike's parents. It was a really good day. We hung out and talked about the wedding, got out the trailer and worked on it so it will be ready for this weekend.
So here is my thing. Sunday was a free day. The only thing we had to do was take Mikey to Toy's R Us because we promised (bribed) him last week if he spent the night at Grandma's we would take him to the toy store. He never used to have to get bribed but now he always wants to be home at night, but that's a good thing. Anyway so we get up and leave about 10:30 and Mikey wanted to go eat breakfast first. So Mike in the car gives me attitude about how he wants to get alot done today and that we are giving him a late start. Well that just blew it for me. I just got pissed. I just feel that all week I am in a constant rush. I am in a rush from the time I wake up in the morning until the time I go to bed. So I was mad and we kind of started arguing. To make matters worse we get to the restaurant and Mikey decides he wants to go to McDonalds, and I said no. So then he refuses to get out of the car, which is so not him. He is always so "go with the flow". So now I am running out of patients and he says "carry me". Mikey is a big boy and anymore I just can't carry him very far. So I tell Mike to handle it. So Mike finally picks him up and carry's him and spanks him on the butt. All I wanted was a nice peaceful breakfast, and that was not happening. Needless to say that just set the tone for the rest of the day. It would be like we got along for a few then something else would set us off.
So today at work has sucked. This is the down fall of working together. When your mad it just shows at work. You get no break from each other to clear your head and kind of miss the person and realize what you did wrong. It's just one thing after another. I have just noticed we have be bickering more then usual and it makes me really upset. It does not make me in anyway doubt our love for eachother or doubt our future, but just makes me wonder why? I know that things can't be happy and wonderful all the time, but to me this is more then I can take. I just think all that we are doing right now is putting alot of stress on us. Not to mention Mike has so much going on at work. He is managing 2 projects that are over $1million dollars, and this is his first year managing this large of a job.
I feel bad about venting this for all the world to see, because I never see many people vent about the bad stuff, it's always the good stuff. There is so nothing wrong with the good stuff, but I just wonder if those people that always seem like everything is perfect ever have relationship issues? Do you yell and scream and cry like I do?
I will be so happy when our wedding is here and gone. That kind of sounds bad, but we just need that time back where it was like the only major things going on were work, family life, Mikey. All the other stuff was just extra. Now it's like today is this, tomorrow we have to do that. I just want it to be back to normal again.
I just love this picture of Mikey. Kids just have no worries in the world. The only thing Mikey was thinking about was if the horse in the pasture was going to mess with his jeep:)
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