Mrs. Cleaver you brought tears to my eyes.......

I would like to THANK "The Cleaver's" from the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much for the beautiful flowers, they were the highlight of my day. It just brought me to tears when I opened the card and seen who it was from. "June" you are truly and extraordinary person and are the only one of my close friends that remembered my Birthday. Hope to see you and the family soon! Have a great weekend.

Love,

Future Mrs. Winton

How Sweet!

How sweet of my cousin Gib. He came by the office this morning to wish me a Happy Birthday and brought me this adorable cake. The inspiration behind it is Palm Desert! He is going with us, we can't wait! He is FABULOUS! See I told all of you I had a great family!

Birthday's are a great time to reflect.................

Well today I am officially 28? That seems so crazy to me. There are times when people ask my age and I still want to answer 23? How weird is that, and how quickly time goes by. I am always an emotional person on these days. When your a kid you wake up excited, look to see if you have any presents yet and get ready for one of the best days out of the year. When your older the thing that really matters are the phone calls or emails you get from the people you love saying "Happy Birthday". For example, this morning Mikey wanted to go to my sisters and ride to school with C.J. so I took him over there, and it was so cute my sister, and my two nephews serenaded me with "Happy Birthday". I just love it.

As I set here at my desk and think about my life I am just one sentimental ball of mush. I think about what a wonderful life I have. I have the greatest family. My parents have exceeded my expectations of what it means to be parents. They have always given me wonderful things and as an adult they give me "things" that are greater then any gift I received as a child. They give me advice, they help me with Mikey, they extend the kindest gestures and most of all they have loved me through everything (even my crazy, rebellious times). For those and more I will always be greatful.

My future husband has given me a life that I never dreamed possible. He loves me unconditionally. He makes me feel like a true princess. Meeting him is one of the best things that's ever happened in my life. We have been together for almost 3 years and I can't wait to marry him. The thought of growing old with him puts a smile on my face knowing that although the life we have now is great, I feel the best is yet to come. Not only is he my future husband, he is the love of my life and my best friend.

My little boy has been the greatest gift ever. He is such a wonderful child. Having him changed my world. He is so loving, has such compassion for people, sensitive and loves to make people laugh. He puts a smile on my face when I see him. If I am upset he knows just what to do. A few weeks ago I was upset and having a bad day, so I laid down with him and I was kind of crying, he (like the little man he is) puts his arm around me and strokes my hair and tells me not to cry and that he loves me. He is truly the best.

I have such a great family. From my sister, to my Aunt Kat, to my brother, and all the rest. They define what it is to be FAMILY. I love them all and can't imagine my life without them.

So as I start my day, I just want to express how greatful I am to celebrate another year older, and to be thankful for all that I have been given and look forward to what lies ahead of me. Without all of you (those mentioned above) I would be nothing.

Palm Desert Here We Come!

I can't wait! We will be departing Thursday morning. I can't believe how fast it has come. We have been planning this for months. I have not be blogging lately, things have just been so crazy. We survived Gib's 40th Birthday, it went great. I have been doing so good on my "diet" and working out, I think I can look in the mirror in my fabulous new bathing suit without screaming, plus getting my spray tan just put the icing on the cake.

Wedding plans are going along, I have to get the invites out the first week of July, wow that is soooo crazy. I just can't wait for it to get here.

Well just wanted to make a short post, I have to get back to work, since I am having a short week I must be a "good" worker and get it all done. Plus I am on a mission to find me an Ed Hardy hat before Thursday!

Friends?

Okay, so I have not blogged in awhile, I have been so busy, but I need to as I have to vent. I am so tired of people in my life that claim to be some of my "best friends", at one of the most important times in my life I need them and where are they? For example, I have 5 bridesmaids in my wedding, 2 of there are 2 of my best friends or so I thought. We have been planning our Co bachelor/Bachelorette party for months, gave people over 6 months notice, but when one of them found out she was pissed and could not believe I had the nerve to ask people to go to it in Palm Desert. She accused me of thinking that I was to good, and to into living "the high society life", what kind of BS is that? It's called having fun and having the right to have my damn party anywhere I like. So after her almost backing out of the wedding over this, I just gave up and said whatever. She is drama anyway.

My other maid who I love dearly was on board. We told her that she could ride down with us, and we are going to share a room with her so she does not have the full expense on her own. I am accommodating her so she can go, because she is a great friend and I would love to have her there. So a couple of weeks ago I got a little drunk and she came to my rescue, now she sends me an email saying that she wants to really get her life in order and she needs to stop hanging around people that drink, drunk people, and all the drama. Could you make me feel any worse. I did thank her and apologize for my behavior. Then at the end of her email she says she is having second thoughts about attending the bacholor/bachelorette party? Are you freaking kidding me? I have been there for her through so many things. Many things that some friends would have just kind of let her go, but not me I am there through it all.

I set here talking to Mike in tears. In tears that all 5 of his groomsmen are attending the party. Three of them are flying from Sacramento to Palm Springs. We are talking lots of money, but they tell him they would not miss it for the world. That is true friendship. Two of my bridesmaids are going. My sister who is the Matron of Honor and my cousin Gloria. My niece is a little to young to go. So how do you think I feel. Like I told Mike, I dealt with girl issues my whole life, from elementary school thru high school. What is wrong with me? Am I not a good friend or am I just a bad judge of character? At this point I am not going to bite my tongue. I am going to tell them how I feel and if they don't like it oh well. Whats the worst that can happen, they back out? I don't want anyone in my wedding that doesn't want to be there anyway. If the shoe were on the other foot I would be honored to be an part of the wedding party and would not miss a thing.

I just know that after all is said and done there are going to be changes in the way I feel and think about people. I have gotten to know new people and am excited about forming new friendships with them. I think I am a great friend to people and it would be nice to have that in return. I have Mike who I love and has become my best friend, and I have those family members that were born as family but have become some of my best friends, but why do I have problems with just "friends".

Any advice?